Today many Indian traditions bring in the new year in the form of festivals like Pongal, Onam and Makar Sankranti.
I had a beautiful start today morning. In addition to the sweet Pongal rice pudding that is traditionally prepared, I was asked to do an Angel card reading for someone who came from a very core scientific background and who the universe was nudging to make a radical shift in his life direction.
It is strange to me that people equate being childlike to being soft, gullible, vulnerable and blindly trusting. If you are also one of them, I urge you to question this image of being a child, for it is just that, an image. I remember being very rude as a child, calling a spade a spade. I also remember being very quiet and quite an introvert (which I translate to someone who is content with her own company). I was fascinated by all the things I would find in me when I wrote, sang and danced. I loved being surprised about myself.
When Inner Child work intensified in my life, it first brought out a mask I had bought into – the people-pleasing, straitjacket girl who is organised and neat. And then ruthlessly this image got burnt away when, every time I acted from this instinct to please, it would backfire. Today I thank the universe’s intelligence to having burnt this side of me, for my ability to tell the truth and call things for what they are, is what helps the beautiful souls most who come to me for readings, clearings, sessions, etc.
Ever since my visit to Sri Ramana Maharshi’s ashram last year, my life has been bringing in a complete new wave. I can see a community of sorts building around my spiritual partner and me. These are people just discovering their spiritual gifts and reluctantly (and sometimes much against their sense of “control”) are being forced to acknowledge that they are the Light, that they are the Earth itself.
In the midst of some of the most amazing energy “downloads” I saw them come up with, some of the most physically intense experiences I saw them have, I questioned my role in this energy circuit. Who am I in all this? In reply I saw my own life’s journey play out to me in slow motion in my inner eye. I could see those times in intense meditations about 3-4 years ago I was seeing the creation of the soul firsthand. I was seeing the vast interconnectedness of an energy grid, which I called the “Cosmic Mind“, looking much like the Flower of Life, where a thought in one individual fires up and lights up different pathways of the grid and makes it come alive in a different way, quite like a kaleidoscope! I was a child in love with these visions. But I didn’t know what to do about these.
Through the course of conversation with these gifted individuals I was sitting around the table with on Christmas Day, it all came together –
You have fallen in love with the design. Now fall in love with its instruments.
It was clear why Breathwork and the technology of breath has been my core fascination for the past 3 years. It was clear why Inner Child healing must take precedence, for yes, only when you start “cleaning up” the mind, does it become transparent enough, to let the Energy effortlessly create what it wants to. And that is what being a child means which, as Jesus says, creates the kingdom of God here. Because it has the ability to interpret fluidly without judgment. Because it has the ability to observe and join the dots intuitively, without fearing the grandness of the bigger picture. For me that is the core purpose of being a child. And mind you, the child has its own ego, as Sadhguru says. The difference is that the ego too comes up only when it must serve the design.
On New Year’s Eve I was sitting in the Ananda Community, making a list of the people who had entered my life in 2014, the people who have gained significance over the year, and the personal message they had to give me, energetically and the habits that had served me i my spiritual growth and those that hadn’t. And as I was doing this work, I repeatedly heard the acharya (the teacher) quoting Paramhansa Yogananda on these topics. I wondered, “Why would someone who had some of the most mystical, magical experiences as a Yogi, someone who was very clearly enlightened, talk about such mundane topics?! What was his need to do that?” A while later, in our lunch break, the answer seemed to stand there unnoticed. One stage of our journey is about realising we are It, call it Love, Source, God, Light, Beauty, Universe. The other part is integrating all that history or conditioning we have inside us that argues, or refuses to let us believe for long that we are It. It is about anchoring or holding this space of being It. It is about watching an argument come up against reality, and dissolving it into the knowingness, “I am”. It is that stage of the hero’s journey when the hero sees that he is the key for which he set out on this long journey away from home, and then finding a way to bring all the other characters in this story to this recognition through his own example.
In this direction, I feel called to offer counseling sessions using different tools and sometimes by direct sensing of one’s energy of the core belief that is holding you back in one or more areas of your life.
For the next 5 days (until 20th January) as an initial offering, these sessions would be one hour long, at an energy exchange of Rs.1110/- or USD 18 over Skype or telephone. If there is resonance, please feel free to write to me at firstname.lastname@example.org with the subject “Energy below Thought“. If you see this and respond to this after the 20th, please write in anyway. A prerequisite for this session is to have a regular meditation practice.
Happy New Year and immense gratitude to that in You which reads, resonates and hence follows this blog!
PS: Since I ushered in my year at Ananda which I believe was Yogananda calling me, I have dedicated this year to Him. I am not a follower of Kriya Yoga (if it’s a past life then I don’t yet know! 🙂 ) and have not completed reading his book, Autobiography of a Yogi. However, just through a photograph of him I found on Facebook, I started feeling a strong resonance that dissolved the patriarchal thoughts and the associated rigidity I had held within me regarding the spiritual path.